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Well, I was supposed to have a script finished tomorrow, but it’s not going to happen. That’s the problem when you have a semi-busy schedule combined with a tendency to procrastinate and a dash of writer’s block. I did get a good chunk knocked out of it today, though, putting me at 19 pages. I’m going to try to crank out 10-ish pages a day to get this thing finished in the next week. It’s a feature-length script, one that’s been long in the making. I wrote the first draft back at the end of December of 2006. This is the 10th draft. Yeah, like I said, a long time coming.
We actually had started production on it back in ‘07… or was it ‘08? (Can’t remember now) My dad was Producer, I was directing. Cast actors, booked crew, had investors and everything. But then things completely fell apart. People didn’t want to come, we lost investors’ funds… the day I called it quits wasn’t a very good one. So the project’s been sitting on the shelf for nearly three years, gathering dust and regrets. But the Lord used that time to work on me, show me why things fell apart, helped me recognize that I wasn’t ready to lead a big production yet. But it wasn’t until this last filmmakers camp that I finally got the message I had long given up on ever hearing: “Now you’re ready. Get to it!” (There were a lot of messages heard that amazing night, but that’s another blog post)
So now I’m back at it. I had never been really been happy with the script, even with the professional critiques we got on it. So I wanted to do one last rewrite before we bring it back into production. I like to think I’ve grown a lot since the last draft, understand things better, can better communicate the right message of the film. And I’m quite happy with the changes I’ve made thus far.
And yet, even with all that being said, it’s still difficult to find the motivation to finish this thing! Even after getting the message to move forward, I’m nowhere near in love with this story as I was when I first started. I still remember how deflated and defeated I felt when I gave up last time, and I still haven’t fully recovered. I’ve got so many other ideas that I’d rather be working on, that are so much more fun! But I keep reminding myself of that night at film camp when I heard God speak to my heart, telling me to move forward again. I have a feeling that if set this project aside to work on those others, they’ll fall apart even worse than this one did. That keeps me motivated (plus, my dad keeps bugging me about it, too. 
), but it doesn’t make it any less difficult. I’m very easily distracted, and as soon as I hit a hard spot it’s easy for my mind to wander. I guess that’s one of the reasons why I’m writing all this now, so that I have some extra accountability from you guys. Message me on Facebook, comment here, whatever you like. Keep asking me how I’m doing on the script, cheer me on, pray for me, give me a friendly reminder to keep at it.
Hopefully next week I’ll be able to hold those ninety pages and thank you all.